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April 23 担心。。。从昨天开始忽然之间就有种奇妙的感觉。。。
以前的我也没试过像这一次那样，，
我。。很担心他，很紧张他。。
不知道他还好吗？？
我。。什么都做不到。。
能做的也只是等待。。
不想烦恼的他再烦。。
我会等他心情变好。。
只要他心情好了我就能看见回笑嘻嘻的他。。
很想念他的笑容。。
一整天都有点木木的，傻傻的。。。
感觉好像失去了什么似的。。。
好奇怪的感觉哦。。。
就是不明白这种感觉。。。 很奇妙的感觉。。。
dede很想你。。
dede担心你。。
dede会等你。。
dede会陪你。。
you're noT alOnE ..
i'll aLwaYS be wif Uuuu ...^^
April 22 i'm tiRED ... i'm stResS ...abouT thIS 2 days ..
i'm reallY tireD ..
tired untiL i'm feeLinG streSS ..
and thiNk myself uselesS ..
i cant handLE anythinGS be gOOD ..
mondAy i was gO tO see that OlympiC tO transfer that FIRE ..
folloW my dada goinG take a LRT ^^
damn shit teacher ..
reallY hatE it ..
take us walK frm masjid jamid tO maharajarela in the afternooN ..
i wanna capture 4 that ppl was transfer tourch ..
bcOZ the bodyguard was feeliNG angrY coz ppl will noT follow rules ..
all the ppl was hope can capture the gOOD photO then all was juz keep go in front ..
finallY tat bodyguard also be fierce ..
and force the ppl and push all the ppl go bhind bY a biG biG energY ..
dunno is me too short or wat ?
he push my brase ..T_T wif big energy ..
reallY pain after he push me ..
damn hate !!!
afteR that shows ..
also need rush bac to skoL to having class until 7.30p.m.
after that really feelinG tired already ..
but i also need go to as a photographer for report news ..
omg ..
after that really beh tahan ..
feeliNG hungry .. tired .. and sick again ..
bcoz kena the raiN ..
go bac home then straight oioi jor ...
tuesday morning ..
go skol on 8.30a.m.
need give teacher to check wat i capture on yesterday ..
but ..
all mY photo was band BY MY TEACHER ..
finally i need to capture it again =_=
later i rush to meet my fren to capture mY 2nd project ..
at that moment really feeling tired already ..
but alos need having my class until 3p.m.
then also bz about my photo ..
also check by teacher ..
luckily 2nd project not all band by teacher ..
juz get some advise ..
but dunno why ..
really feeliNG sad and stress again ..
coZ i really bad in as a photographer ..
bz a whole day i juz a few times to take a rest ..
so that in tat moment i juz hope can hear some1's voice ..
that voice juz can make me b tough ..
i mis him so much ..
but we make miSunderstanding jor bcoz in my voice waS like beh sonG..
haiZ ...
really a stupiak me ..
when he ask me feeliNG fan ?
at that moment i really cant tahan my tears jor ..
so that i juz knw to cry ..
in phone i really miS hiM ..
but i really dunno he was in bad mOOD ..
after that i also having my talkshow about that assignment ..
damn tired and getting sick jor =_=
frens feeling i'm fever again ..
i cant concentrate in that talkshow so i juz make a sound records in phones ..
after that talkshow i need rush to capture my photo again ..
i hope that this times not will band by my teacher agaiN ..
thx 4 my dada tO acc me go there ^^
xin ku le ...
damn sicK jor ..
tmr need go to find advertisement fees ..
is time to oioi now ..
i know in the future was hv many challenge again ..
so i'll learn must be tough..
gambateh ... ..
cant help u anythings when u're bad mood ..
wiSh dada aLL the besT ..
goOD 9 ..
sweet dreamZzzz ^^
muakKS ^^ April 19 2 weeks ...about this 2 weeks was occurs many things ..
happy ?? unhappy ??
also hv ..
i get a strange email ..
since i'm really heLpless ..
but finally i was solve it ..
i dunno wat i'm thinking at tat moment ..
juz feeling strange that all ppl i cant blieve ..
but i'm wrong ..
i'm wrong coz i'm easily influnce by ppl ..
and try to dun trust anyone ..especially is him ..
finally that was solve it ^^
i'm really bad in healthy now ..
i hv dizzy this recently ..
actually i'm scare ..
but i'm b tough ..
i dunwan ppl to worry me ..
but in my mind ..
i'm really think i'm ok de ..
mayb juz tired so will make me like that ..
for those ppl to kacau me and my bf ..
really please stop it ..
i wont change my heart whatever u do ..
and plz dun do any childish things again ..
it juz will make ppl think u r stupiak ppl ..
although was opening skol about 2 weeks ..
but i'm really no into the study situation..
i juz always blur blur at skol ..
finally the blur blur and stupid of me was hv a car lissence ..
i'm really feeling happy that i was pass it ..
and i think i'm not a really stupid person jor ^^
this recently i'm feeling happiness about our love ..
u care me more and more ..
feeling touch ..
but sometimes also dunno wat r u thinking about ..
hope that u make me more know u ^^
watching that THE SEVENTH DAY ..
i was cry coz the plot was make me feeling touch ..
and some plot was almost likes u n me ^^
it's sunday 2a.m. now ..
i'm feeling tired ..and sleepy ..
but i really cant oioi ..
feeling hard now ..
i'm hardworking to eat many kinds of medic ..
but it look like void ..
but i'll b all right ..
still a jump jump fishball ^^ April 07 没有你在的日子。。。第一天的学校生活还ok的。。
看见会自己熟悉的朋友们。。
一起哈哈笑笑。。
虽然有点不舒服。。
可是还是很享受。。
中午的一段时间里。。
自己在图书馆休息。。
真的累了。。歇了一下。。
脑子里忽然想起你。。
以前在学校偶尔可以撞下运气碰碰你。。
现在想都没有机会了。。
没有你在的日子第一天还蛮不自然的。。
想起以前曾经一起我和你谈天的秘密基地。。
想起那熟悉的位子。。
不知哪个棒棒糖是否还在你那里。。
有一起带走吗？？
很想你。。
希望现在的你一切都很好。。
我会加油。。
不会让你失望。。
我知道我每次都把话挂在嘴边。。
应该要以行动来实行。。
其实还有东西没给到你。。
一叠自己写的信。。。
放在一个神秘的盒子里。。。
最然没有很完整。。。
也只有那30张。。
意志力不够。。才持续写了一个月。。
虽然给不到你。。
但是偶尔自己还是会拿来回忆一下。。^^
也知道你不可能看到这个部落格的。。
还是笨笨地写。。
哪怕有一天你会看到。。期待^^
虽然你说我进步了很多继续加油。。
可是我想自己还是老样子。。
还是爱哭的我。。
信息你时有很多想说的话。。
可是还是很简约的问候。。
蛇王。。
加油加油！！！^^
鱼旦还是很期待能再见到你。。
有缘再见。。
蛇王鱼旦gO go gO ..^^ April 06 害怕。。。明天就要开学了。。
懒了3个月多。。
真不舍得做懒人的日子。。
其实说真的。。
害怕的有很多。。
我。。
害怕学校熟悉的老师都不在后会是一个怎样的媒系。。
害怕所有的课满满的我会变成怎样。。
害怕这一个学期要修9门课的我会比以前好吗。。
害怕有选修课。。不知道该选什么。。
害怕上一整天课的我会不会疯掉。。
害怕学校没了他我的学校生活又是怎样了。。
害怕和我的他见面会变少。。
害怕感情会淡掉。。
害怕自己想念他的心会逐渐增加到无可自拔。。
害怕。。
为什么我总是在害怕？？
为什么我就是不能坚强点。。
我害怕长大。。
害怕长大后的我会很少人疼我。。
害怕长大后很多的烦恼。。
其实很多时候一直都在骗自己。。
自己的任性，霸道与无理取闹时常带给身边的人很多的不便。。
我就是那样。。
说改只是那一下下。。
过后就会重演。。
我要豁出去了。。
不想一直那样停留着。。
过去的事情不要再想了。。
明天就是新的开始。
新的生活。。
还有很多的事情等着我去挑战。。
等着我去做。。
我不想辜负你对我的期望。。
我会对自己有信心。。
我不要小看我自己。
我会好好保重。。^^
继续努力。。
我要加油了。。
因为
“雨后总有晴天，就算再大的狂风暴雨，乌云也遮不住温暖的太阳。”
生病了要睡觉了。。不然明天一整天我怕会倒。。
9a.m.到7.30p.m.
我和你拼了！！！^^
April 02 ok ???oN apriL fOOL daY ...
i think wat i do was very funny ..
but i didnt care about wat he'll think ..
feeL soRRy anD guiltY ...
i also knoW iT cant sayS and play thiS kinD of things de ..
but i still play iT ...
when april midnight ..
i play 1 times ..
afteR we happY oN 1 aPriL nighT ..
i plaY 1 more times again ...
thiS time i plaY more seriously and talking morE anD moRE ..
verY reaLitY ..
reality i writE alSO wiLL crY ..anD mY tears was non-stoP ..
SO sORry ..dada
todaY i wake up earlY tO makE sushi and bread 4 my lovelY ..
but finallY i didnt give hiM ..
coZ somethingS was happen tat i noT wisH ..
and i thiNk the fOOd i cookiNG was bad taste ...
since wanna give mY hiM a surprise ..
but ..
ntg joR ...
i'll trY tO learN more and more ^^
i'm sorry my hp was nO batterY ..
and i set silent sO i cant receive ur caLL ...
when i get msg ..
i'm feeliNG emptY at tat moments..
mY minD was sundenlY bcOMe blaNK ..
i dunknow wat i thiNK ..
sO i juz give a caLL ..
thx ..
i'm reallY scaRE ..
i promise U wont play thiS kinD oF thinGS jor and reallY wont easilY tO sayS it ouT ...
ok ???
u tOO ...
can ???
i loVE dada ...^^ |
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